Accepting What Is

Hè, friend!

I have been enjoying taking care of myself and nurturing my soul. I take so much pride in how far I have come in my life. It is surreal to think three years ago I was drowning my sorrows in big schooners of IPAs. Now, I’m grounded and able to face any problem head-on without a second thought. Plus, I have the best circle of people who build me up. I am sharing space with people like me. I am not hanging on to old friends or old memories and feeling stuck in my old ways of coping. I have moved on. I want to keep progressing, and the only way is to stop looking back. My acceptance of my future and how I want my future to look like is my key to my happiness. The rearview mirror isn’t distracting me anymore. My future is in plainview, and it’s mesmerizing!

This garden parsley and fennel face 😂

Spread Love Where Love Is Sparse

Who you were yesterday doesn’t have to define you today unless you want it to. Say that twice. I’m sure depending on who you’re talking to, there will be many opinions of me. Some good, some bad. If I cared about the world’s opinion, I wouldn’t have time to focus on me being my best self. I bring forth my best smiles to frowns. I give hugs for free! I listen intently to anyone willing to give me a friendly conversation. I give, give, give. I don’t expect anything back. I just want anyone I encounter to feel good being them. I want to bring love and care back into the picture. If for one moment strangers become friends and enemies agree to disagree, then the day was pretty great.

Bee nice😍

8 Hugs A Day

I told my Ayurveda teacher how cold I’ve been lately, like, “to the bone chill.” She suggested many scenarios, but lack of loving attention from others struck me deep. I do demand hugs from my family, but I haven’t been present with them. I’ve been soldiering through the muck of life with only me. It was apparent that I needed more community and more time with those I love. That’s my secret recipe to refuel. I was giving, giving, giving, and no one filled me up. I neglected me in a sense. So, my teacher said we need 8 hugs a day. How many hugs do you get a day? Now, that I’m mindful, I aim for 8. Get in those hugs! Lol!

My husband still holds my hand. He takes me on drives so I can see the sunset. That’s love💗

Community

I never know who I am going to meet outside my house. I love volunteering and meeting all the world has to offer. I find people so enchanting, and their stories capture me every time! I do get filled up with love when I see a group of people serving the community. I work hard, planting seeds and growing myself to the woman I see myself as. She’s wise, loving, accountable, trusting, strong. I build these gifts from the people I meet, so thank you🥹

My cuddle buddies 💙❤️

Yogi Outro

We all have gifts. The funnest part of life is finding who you are. My discovery process has been fulfilling and keeps me accountable. I strive each day to take yesterday’s learnings into today’s garden. I don’t have to plant them all. Some seeds are not to grow on but keep to give to someone else. I’m always thinking of others. I’m a nurturer, but not everyone needs me. I learned to back off. Those are my lessons learned. I also make sure I’m getting not only self- love but also accept love from others. Especially those hugs!

Namastè!

All pictures by Lenape Spiritual Yogi Awakened.

Transformation Proclamation

Hi, friends!

I have been healing and enjoying my transformation these past few weeks.  This journey is out of this world and I’m so excited to share my life in all its exquisite light. I know I’m beginning my spiritual awakening and I’ve never, ever felt so free in my whole life. I’m literally glistening in my body, mind, and spirit.

My daily meditation is crucial to my healing.

What is a spiritual awakening? From my research, it’s an episode that happens in your life (usually, tramatic, at least for me) that sparks a deep, inner awakening. I have been experiencing this for over a year and I didn’t know what I was witnessing until I went down a rabbit hole and me being me, I am embracing it all. I find myself right at home in nature. Something very familiar indeed. I crave it.

Stop. Drop. Yoga meditation 🧘🏽‍♀️

I have so much peace in my life and this privilege allows me the ability and space to enjoy this journey. I am safe and able to freely begin peeling off the decades layers of ego and disassociate myself from others opinions. I just want me. Raw. I often ask myself who would I be if I were dropped off in a field with nothing nearby. What would my super powers be? How would I sustain myself? I will always be. I know I am strong and capable of healing. Such power in knowledge, right?

I get to witness this most mornings!🥰

So, I am not working alone. I have a therapist, sponsor, yoga teachers, Ayurveda teacher, & multiple strong friends to accompany me on this journey. I’m working through some very, very old traumas and as I do, it gets easier to talk about and work through. That in turn, makes all aspects of my life easier. I can tell I’m opening my heart. Not just in feelings but even in yoga. My flipped dog is pretty open and fierce, if you ask me. All power! This is new and lovely.

I will bring my blanket and a book to any park at anytime to get my much needed nature time.

There has been a lot déjà vu as well. I will have people repeat things from my head (dreams?) or multiple people will tell me the exact, verbatim words🥺 I thought I wasn’t dreaming, so I told my acupuncturist and she went to work with needles in my head and by the next morning, I remembered past dreams. I was trying to tell my husband but as I spoke they were disappearing from my memory. I stopped talking so I could gather the quickly dissipating memories but it was too late. Oh well, atleast I got confirmation I am dreaming.

Looks worse than it feels🥰

I’ve also been feeling my sensory organs are heightened. Some people appear brighter than others and they can also appear louder. I’m not sure why yet as I’m still in the discovery phase and this just started happening this weekend. 😳 My daughter has a lot of energy and when she got excited today it felt like a surge of my personal energy was zapped. I had to let her know that was a lot and I couldn’t handle another. Another what? I don’t know but my senses were on high alert to not be robbed again!

I love being on the lake😍

My new life. This is creating a strong, loving, dedicated, instinctual, headstrong, balanced, committed human being. I’m am learning so much about myself in this process. I’m slowly getting back into my Ayurveda balanced meals and I’ll share those soon! Take the time to create your beautiful rituals. Keep yourself in a loving light and be kind, not just to others. Be kind to you too. I hope this sparks an interest. Or maybe you relate and you’re on your own journey and didn’t even know, like me!😅

Namaste🧘🏽‍♀️

All pictures by Lenape Spiritual Yogi Awakened.