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Hi, yogi friend!

I write this as a reflection on my early morning faux pas. Being late. First off, I stayed in bed and began to get caught up on Ayurveda class and recipes. I then get a reminder that I have yoga class in 10 min. I hopped up, showered, abhyonga, brushed my teeth, scraped my tongue (so white😮‍💨), Nettie pot, and oiled my sinuses. It’s 5:36. By the time I get there it would be 5:45. I know the instructor wouldn’t mind at all but I feel defeated. For real, how late is it obnoxious?

Me patiently awaiting the sun and all the warmth.

I know I’ve said this before but I need space. This is why my time management is off. I need to be allowed more wiggle room. I’m a free spirit and now I feel trapped. I set this crazy, scheduled mindset up to protect myself. I needed a full day all the time to protect me from going back to old habits. I am more aware and honed in on stress in my body now that I cut out the alcohol. I don’t have anywhere to run and hide. I. Feel. It. All. I am late to this game by 4 weeks. Are you late? Is it just me?

Yesterday, was pretty chilly. 2nd day of fall right on time🕒🌬🍂

I don’t like to be known as the late one or undependable. But I am. Why do these labels I named irritate me? This cannot be my demise. I did so much work in the past year that this is what does me in? Hell no! I forget. I have a team of people rooting for me and helping me build my life back to a healthy existence. My yoga teacher told me that we need to keep our tools in our pocket. What do I know to help me alleviate the pain of stress? I meditate.

My pranabath followed by a deliciously, nourishing meditation💖

I meditate most days. I crave it. It doesn’t have to be the drawn out drive to a lake or nature. It can be your backyard, livingroom, bedroom, bathroom, closet, wherever you can sit or lay, you can meditate. There is something about being in nature though. Everything about it I absolutely adore. I absorb prana sounds, smells, sight, taste of the new fall coolness, earth alive on my bum by the water. This is our new RX. I bet your doctor never prescribed this free thought.

As I create more space on my calendar I cannot forget my home and car. What am I holding onto? I have lots of hidden corners in my home and I know a good purge is coming and it’ll feel so nourishing! I can’t wait to share that cause just the idea has me psyched! I feel a huge weight lifting. A shift. This should help me get a clearer head as well. Crazy, right? Or no?

My favorite beet and lentil soup to bring in fall🌻

I don’t mean this as a bash session on myself. Awareness is key and a 1st step. I met with my Ayurveydic practitioner and he told me I’m Pitta Kapha which I now have a clearer understanding on my doshas to begin healing. It was a joy to learn all about me and be given a prescription to live again and it’s unlike any prescription you’ve been given! I’ll share more on my next blog!

Namastè 🙏🏽

All pictures by Lenape Spiritual Yogi Awakened.

Hi, friends!

I have been healing and enjoying my transformation these past few weeks. This journey is out of this world and I’m so excited to share my life in all its exquisite light. I know I’m beginning my spiritual awakening and I’ve never, ever felt so free in my whole life. I’m literally glistening in my body, mind, and spirit.

My daily meditation is crucial to my healing.

What is a spiritual awakening? From my research, it’s an episode that happens in your life (usually, tramatic, at least for me) that sparks a deep, inner awakening. I have been experiencing this for over a year and I didn’t know what I was witnessing until I went down a rabbit hole and me being me, I am embracing it all. I find myself right at home in nature. Something very familiar indeed. I crave it.

I have so much peace in my life and this privilege allows me the ability and space to enjoy this journey. I am safe and able to freely begin peeling off the decades layers of ego and disassociate myself from others opinions. I just want me. Raw. I often ask myself who would I be if I were dropped off in a field with nothing nearby. What would my super powers be? How would I sustain myself? I will always be. I know I am strong and capable of healing. Such power in knowledge, right?

So, I am not working alone. I have a therapist, sponsor, yoga teachers, Ayurveda teacher, & multiple strong friends to accompany me on this journey. I’m working through some very, very old traumas and as I do, it gets easier to talk about and work through. That in turn, makes all aspects of my life easier. I can tell I’m opening my heart. Not just in feelings but even in yoga. My flipped dog is pretty open and fierce, if you ask me. All power! This is new and lovely.

I will bring my blanket and a book to any park at anytime to get my much needed nature time.

There has been a lot déjà vu as well. I will have people repeat things from my head (dreams?) or multiple people will tell me the exact, verbatim words🥺 I thought I wasn’t dreaming, so I told my acupuncturist and she went to work with needles in my head and by the next morning, I remembered past dreams. I was trying to tell my husband but as I spoke they were disappearing from my memory. I stopped talking so I could gather the quickly dissipating memories but it was too late. Oh well, atleast I got confirmation I am dreaming.

I’ve also been feeling my sensory organs are heightened. Some people appear brighter than others and they can also appear louder. I’m not sure why yet as I’m still in the discovery phase and this just started happening this weekend. 😳 My daughter has a lot of energy and when she got excited today it felt like a surge of my personal energy was zapped. I had to let her know that was a lot and I couldn’t handle another. Another what? I don’t know but my senses were on high alert to not be robbed again!

My new life. This is creating a strong, loving, dedicated, instinctual, headstrong, balanced, committed human being. I’m am learning so much about myself in this process. I’m slowly getting back into my Ayurveda balanced meals and I’ll share those soon! Take the time to create your beautiful rituals. Keep yourself in a loving light and be kind, not just to others. Be kind to you too. I hope this sparks an interest. Or maybe you relate and you’re on your own journey and didn’t even know, like me!😅

Namaste🧘🏽‍♀️

All pictures by Lenape Spiritual Yogi Awakened.

Self-Diagnosed Yogi

Learning to slow down and digest my experiences and share my awakening:)

How late is too late?

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