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Life Is Lifing

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(WRITTEN 6/16/2025)

He, Yogi 🙂

I have been learning how to navigate my new life. I am on the cusp of something magnificent. I feel I am at a crossroads and have been for a minute. I need to make my decision and move forward with confidence. Uggghhhh….decisions, being an adult, and hurrying up are not my forte. It’s ok because I am the driver of this ship. I am in control and after taking months to sit and watch the seasons pass, it’s time to get up and get to the goal. I can definitely agree, life is lifing over here.

Making Space

First things first, I needed to get really clear on where I am going. If I am the manifestor of my life, then I need to know where to go and how to get there. I have acquired the quiet space from distractions since my MIL is out of the country and my husband works out of the house. I was able to create my safe garden space and made more space in the house by donating our overage. Being quiet and listening to subtle messages within me is how I get my downloads. It’s quite amazing! My greatest find is to pencil space on my calendar to have time to pranayama, Japa meditation, and meditate every day. It has been a game changer and sharpened my intentions. I want to be the greatest me I can be!

Never Stop Learning

I took a mantra class recently and it changed me 100%! Honestly, I thought it was something totally different, but I am so glad I went! I know I am where I am supposed to be. Life is hard and life is good. I appreciate the balance, and it molded me into a pretty adaptable human. I couldn’t manifest a better perspective. Me, accepting life as it shows up. No fits, no tantrums. I just show up and keep it moving. I am blessed!

Making New Friends – Mid Aged

I am accepting new people into my life and getting to know them. It’s great to talk “yoga” and wisdom learning with strangers. Most of my conversations are medicine and help me to see clearer when I get different perspectives. I mean how deep can you go with a complete stranger? It’s medicine for me. I mean, I do talk to people I am close to, but we are on totally different levels. I like to get WEIRD sometimes and have those higher conversations outside of pleasantries.

Every day is a new chance to embrace my life. I love living more than ever before! I have found purpose in my life beyond serving others. I can serve myself too. I am learning to navigate balance and will never stop learning. My relationships will change and I am willing to change with them. I will end troubled relationships and water the relationships I find value in and learn to know the difference. Balance is my key and every day is different. I am here showing up with fear and excitement. I know my truth and it’s going to be a very, beautiful life indeed 🙂

Thank you for showing up and being you!

Namaste!

Falling Back in Line – Part II

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Hè, Yogi!

I wanted a frog pond💕

It has been a season of heat! I am so grateful for the relief after the long, hot, humid summer days and nights. Everything outside burned…oh yeah, and my body became inflamed out of nowhere. I have never experienced such a scorcher of a season! I am grateful for healing herbs and a stellar intuition to guide me on my healing journey. I am ready to get back and grounded in my healing routines and reset my habits. My soul is craving routine:)

Full Moon energy🌕

I decided to get my life back together and get on a grounding schedule: morning routine and evening routine. I also want to use my energy to manifest new ideas through blogging and other social media platforms. What if I created a healing environment and space to recharge every day? Could I escape my safe boundaries? Can I trust my instincts will only attract me to the right people? As my fatigue dissipates, I have space to explore and to be curious.

Chickies are laying😍

I choose to do monthly manifestations based on my what I am facing that month. It’s basically an hour session of me answering a series of questions to get laser focused on where I want to grow. I detail how to spend the 4 – 5 weeks learning how to become my dreams. If you are interested in the questions I answer to get to my monthly manifestation plan, message me below or comment 🙂

Sunrise and Jupiter & Venus🌟

I will share my morning/evening routine next week with why I do what I do. I love to share because we don’t know what we don’t know. I have uprooted all that I thought I knew and relearned with a passion for loving myself and being honest. That includes living in harmony and making sure I do not kill my natural skin biome. I highly suggest unscented natural soap. I have a few natural soap dealers at farmers’ markets that I trust with my skin. I also use unscented organic sesame oil as lotion all over myself. I bought a bunch of natural serums and tallow that I do plan on reviewing soon!

So cute!

I hope you enjoy this September series of Reset Rituals. Let’s get ungunked before going into the changing weather patterns of autumn! Baby steps get you to the finish line. I promise it’ll be worth it!

Namaste!

Mni Wichoni

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Hè, yogi!

I had a huge release! I feel so very connected to myself, and I’d like to give a huge shoutout to mni (Lakota), water. I jumped forward with an idea that came into fruition the day before. I was sitting next to the water to listen and be enchanted with its rhythm and free flow of clarity and truth. Boom, bop, bam! Idea enters my brain. I never jumped on something so fast since I started my business. It’s been 3 years since I gained my confidence back and can trust the unknown is going to be scary but so healing. Cheers to, mni and reminding me of who I am.

My spot to cold plunge🥶

There is something so healing about water. It cleans us, cools us, supports us, nourishes us. Water is us. I forget the beauty of healing with water after a long-frozen winter. Now as things thaw, I too become unthawed and curious. I too venture to the edges of my safety container to see what it’s like to become unraveled and grow towards the sun. What if I jumped into my fears and found out I can survive? That it didn’t hurt and actually opened up a new perspective of winning.

I have to come undone to move in this new direction of manifesting and seeing it through. That is my number one goal in everything. I have been finishing my fireplace project and had to pause because I need to go back to the store to get a small roller because I lost or threw away mine. I’m finally ready to begin the last varnish layer and I get to mark this off my list. That feels good to be so productive. Due diligence at its finest. I am a completer of my goals, om.

Before…
After🥹

I have to get going on a zoom call but I wanted to get my thoughts out there on the healing benefits of water. I cannot wait for my favorite summer season to really enjoy the waters support. Me and water will heal this summer and I will thrive in all that I do! I will share more on manifestation later 🙂

Namaste!

Trust The Process

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Hè, friend!

It has been too long since I have shared my life experiences as a yogi. My last post was falling back in line with my commitments to myself. I am the most unstructured person I know. Can I be structured? Yes! In fact, the slow but steady curiosity has led me to believe it is crucial in my growth. I have been pondering where I want to be in life. What does my life look like in 5 months? 1 year? 5 years? This is so important to be really clear with myself. Needless to say, this took all of 3 months. I am just getting started on how to get there. It’s not a rush but a direction I am heading. I will accept the failures and learn then re-route. Trust the process.

I’m doing some home remodeling 🤗

This morning, I decided to whip out a facial mask recipe and I am glowing! I feel fantastic too! My life is pretty amazing and it’s clear I have created all the space I needed to begin my transformation. The full moon last night was pulling all the worries I have front and center. I do not like to give worry a pulse but last night I tossed from 2:40 am – 4 am. I guess it’s time to face what it is. I like to pause and walk around the very root of my issues, careful to not disturb until I’m ready. Now it is so.

Winter has brought up a lot of things, things I forgot I buried…

This winter has been very clear to me. I have discovered a lot about me that I admire, and I want to gather all of my strengths into community. I find myself wavering because I am not fully rooted. When I am certain my “WHERE” and “WHY” I can build on that. It takes so much time, and I know I need to reach out to my community. Who are they? Where do I feel safest? I notice as people show me their true colors I will either jump or withdrawal and lately, there’s been a lot of me pulling back, observing. Who can I trust? I usually fall quickly and learn the hard way. Why is trusting people so blind? I mean, I am genuine, and I just cannot believe how hard that is….truly disheartening.

I am capable💪🏽💖

I have a local business helping me with my business branding and social media. I cannot wait to begin the spring/summer season of selling my drinks. I love what I do, it’s why I do it. I am craving more though and since I have gotten clear on my goals, I just need courage and trust. Well, I hope to begin documenting my journey as promised. I am worthy of all the glory of my wildest dreams! I really am and I am ready to get started!

Namaste!

Sitting in Contentment

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Hi!

I have been in a creating mood. I’m ready to see what is out there. I have spent my summer cleaning, moving, organizing, working, and now it’s time to have fun! I’m ready to plan a vacation with my friend and another with my husband. I am enjoying the cool nights and find myself slowing down. Life is showing me that it is yet another season to reflect on the busy of summer, to process the major events, and sit with what I have and enjoy. I love this season! I feel the contentment of my hard work sinking in, I have come soooooo far! I am very proud of myself.

I’m captivated by every sunrise. A new beginning.

I decided to re-introduce my daily mantras routine Monday. I get up each morning and head into the bathroom. After I wash my face, I will look myself in the mirror and say my daily loving mantras. I am feeling the deep truth of my words. I even believe myself. I learned to honor me and be so kind. I am a builder. I will no longer tear myself down from my past. I will only love. Me and everyone. Love is the easiest to share for me. My love language shows up in serving others. I really love to serve. Yesterday, I ran myself into the ground serving. I need to relearn balance and boundaries. This will be my season to honor my boundaries and learn “NO” again. “NO” isn’t unkind. What could that mantra look like?

Do you feel the release of the summer heat? Is there cooler nights where you live? I love summer! I do enjoy the cooling effects of transition time. I used to be so scared of change because I didn’t know what to expect. I mean, my whole life changed from me saying “NO”. Just like that. I can sit and adjust and just be. Life is the coolest experience, and I have so much space to explore but for now, I am good just sitting in contentment. I really love where I am at, but I must keep moving through the seasons. What a life!

Real life peace💝

Namaste!

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Inner Peace Achieved

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Hello, fellow yogi!

Today, my house is no longer mine and belongs to a new family to create new memories. I will miss that house, but now I am in a new chapter. My immediate future is unknown but fascinating. I find myself becoming curious in my new environment, and I enjoy making new plans and stamping my ever-loving impression on all my new spaces. I am digesting new experiences as they come up. I may sit with a feeling to discover the path I need to grow. It’s so easy to look at new difficulties with zero hope, but how does it feel to sit in it and learn to be ok? In the beginning of my spiritual awakening, I was always sitting next to the water. I would meditate and be entranced with the offerings of the water and wet earth. The smell, the sound, the water spilling onto the land, and receding as wildlife created ripples. I saw so many fish feed early in the morning. I was home. I finally learned peace and to be content with where I am now.

A meditative walk in nature with my sweet Alex💝

I had to be alone to understand my why and to heal. I had a lot of garbage from my past I lugged around. Thoughts, experiences, life that needed to be sorted. What did I need to get rid of and drop off at the lake? I spoke my truths to rocks and buried them deep to be cleansed by the earth. I knew I was getting better because I felt better. My yoga poses became unhinged. My hips were awakened. I was fluid and thriving in my new environment.

Yoga with Mr. Baby🥰

I remember so vividly how light I became. I wanted to be safe sitting at the water’s edge all the time. I was protected and thriving for the first time in my adult life. First thing in the morning, at 5:20 a.m., I rolled out my mat and began my ritual. My spiritual ritual and all the things that brought me joy. All the things people told me to stay away from cause its “devil” stuff. Well, those people and their opinions weren’t very prevalent in my life because I was able to find my truth through all the haze. I became unscared and unglued. I was freed from chains I was born into. Generational curses, traumas, living my life to please others, depression, alcoholism, it all began to speak to me to guide me away from the pain I didn’t have to stay in. I was my own abusive partner for so long, but I found out how much I loved myself. I thank nature for that. I didn’t heal myself, and I’d like to think I played a part in helping heal nature too.

Well, there is a beautiful painting that reflects my healing process. It brought me to recollect my inner peace and write this blog. I am hanging this in my living room over my fireplace to bring peace in my new chapter. It will serve as a reminder how far I came. It will give me healing vibrations from memory of the water washing me clean. I am still here thriving in the midst of life.

My new painting, Silent River by Mishea Obiji💝

Namaste!

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Whirlwind

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Hi, fellow yogi!

I have been in a whirlwind of life these past few weeks! Whew! Is it over? How are you doing? So, for every good deed, there has been a big fat wrench thrown in last minute. How can one be in control of this twister of shit? Well, I have relinquished control since it’s clear to see I never had any. LOL! I do whatever I can to get me out of my victim mentality and into taking care of what needs to be taken care of and getting back to the grind. I know a good cry session is a very powerful tool, so I won’t hold back on any of that, and I immediately feel 1,000% better. Hmmmm….food for thought.

We are in this whirlwind together. Nourishment is💞❣️

I had to get dental work done last week and my Dr put me on antibiotics. I reluctantly have been taking them and I will be hard at work rebuilding my gut biome right after my last pill. What can appear as “bad” can turn out good. I also have been running myself all over the place when I should be healing and spent all day Saturday tending to me. I even took a nap with no worries of where I have to be next. Listening to myself comes easy when it’s being cozy and lazy. My favorite cold weather activity!

Slowing down and tending to my body’s needs has been my focus this weekend💝

I can feel summer coming to a close. The garden that was once thriving is slowing down. I’m ready to start some fall crops and see my crop well into the fall, maybe even the winter! That would be awesome! I am planning on enjoying the rest of my day continuing my rest fest. My journey has given me so much insight, just being with nature. We are all connected. I got to watch the sun rise, and I did a few sun salutations as the bees buzzed in delight. What a beautiful day ahead of me! I wish you an amazing start!

Namaste!

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Summer cool down begins

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Hi, to my fellow yogi!

The fire of summer is beginning to lessen on this side of the world. It is a nice transition to all the yogis who do not enjoy sweating in summer’s fire. I do! I thrive in the heat of summer and find ways to stay outside. I keep cool and hydrated with summer’s gifts of fruit and juicy, cooling veggies, and mint 🙂 I also feel like it’s go, go, go the whole season. I love being busy but I have to learn to sit and digest everything I’ve seen, heard, lived through, etc. How do you digest things you see or hear? Well, from my experience, mediation is my digestive power to process my senses.

I have had summers full of awesome experiences every day. I had no idea how to process and digest. I still remembered it but how can I incorporate it into my life or handle my future if I’m not fully sure what happened? Now, I sit. I cleanse my area and my body with sage or santo palo. The scent initiates the beginning of my ritual. I can sit outside in my hammock swing for hours. I listen to the sound of nature surround me and let myself know I am safe. Thoughts invade but I put them to bed by acknowledging them and letting go. I try to think of nothing. I concentrate on my breath….4 seconds in…..4 seconds out.

Can I just share that living in the moment is the most freeing choice I have ever made. I don’t think of past experiences or future ones. I just look around and concentrate on what surrounds me. The joy of the four inch grasshopper happily jumping through the grass. The butterfly that is so sure of it’s journey from flower to flower. The bees that fly around me without a care. I am amongst friends. Can you even think of the last time you sat with no worry or hankering to be busy? You can just sit and admire. I love summer and how alive it is! Do you agree?

I feel the communication my body gives me. I know how to nourish myself even though I’m super busy. I have to be sure I am shedding other peoples energies. I get bogged down with feelings that are not mine. I can very easily pick up energies from a room and they pester my brain and thoughts. No thank you! Not my cup of tea. I like to clear the channels daily and the best way is to journal and meditate. Maybe try the next time you feel clogged up. Try 1 minute. I highly suggest finding a meditation group or consultant.

My favorite meditation spot in Kauai, HI.

If you are in Lawrence, KS, try my friend, Jamelle with Bare Roots Energy. She specialized in reiki, mediation, chakras, and sooooo much more!! I also have her mediation handbook that is incredible! Let’s start our journey to better selves now, together!

Namaste!

Self-Realization

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Hè, friend!

Spring is really showing out this season. We had wet, rainy days, cold days, blustery windy days, hot, sunny days, and chilly nights. My spring reset is officially fully integrated, and I am excited to see the sights with my fully functional senses. I would agree that April is flying by! I made an intention of posting every day, but I found it wasn’t beneficial to my life. I do want to share every day, but some days I get so busy, I forget. I also find myself in a repeating thought process. It’s where I am sometimes. I found myself in a familiar pattern of not finishing things. I will have big ideas and big plans, but I fall short and completely stop. I then move on to the next thing to partially build.

4/20 plant potting party!

I noticed this huge pattern in my life. A huge hindrance and an elephant in the room I called ‘normal’. Now that I see it, what am I going to do about it, you ask? Well, I am taking big plans into action by building my lemonade business up. I began my week of research and writing and planning. I’m quiet on the internet, but things are manifesting over here! I want to see this out and invest my best in myself. If the business fails, I will take what I need and build it better the next time. If I thrive, I will share my knowledge as seeds for the next person. I am not a gatekeeper, I share. Knowledge is power, and I feel it in my soul that I am on the right path no matter the outcome.

Whatever I say now are my plans will change. I will change as a person as my business grows. This is the natural progression in life. I know what it feels like to be wanting more and have no idea how to get there. I just left an outgrown garden bed and found one with companion plants that will ensure my survival and show me how to thrive. One day, I will need to change out of this garden bed but for now, it’s home. My roots are getting stronger as I learn to navigate through these unknown times. My feet will not fail me now.

Namastè!

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Manifestor

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Hè, friend!

It’s been pretty quiet over here. I have been taking some time out to decompress and reset. I am ready to resume my path, and I am contemplating how my mornings will look beginning next week. I have new focus and direction to entertain me while the kinks of my life work themselves out. I will finish what I started and noticed I’m falling back into a pattern of a bunch of half-finished shit. Ew. I want to manifest myself as a finisher and even better as a successful businesswoman. I have saved millions for big corporations, and now it’s time for me to use my power for me. I will determine my successes, and this will be such an amazing time to learn and make money while learning on the job.

What is a manifestor?

A do-er. The seer from manifesto to end-O. Me. Hi, I am a manifestor of my life dreams and I turn them into reality. I know what things make me sing and I know what the beat of my heart longs for. I am excellent at solving my own problems and keeping moving forward. My dreams become tangible, and I keep manifesting my dreams.

Make a detailed list.

How can I know what I really want if I don’t write it down? I get excited seeing new monthly goals typed out. It makes them real. I mean, how can I talk about my future plans with my future customers if I’m not planning? Duh! I love planning, it’s acting on those plans that’s my downfall. I find myself in too many rooms and not finished painting one of them. I think this might be mindless sabotage pattern that I need to break. I see how this sneaky little, big, huge problem snaked its way into my sober life. I quit alcohol so this is nothing. Here goes nothing.

Do I need to break a pattern?

First of all, I will need to be the one to recognize it. Then, I have to agree to change its form. I find value in boundaries and making sure I trust where I am. Do I need armor? Do I need my defenses up? I like to fully understand where I am in my feelings. How do I feel? That is a multiple, daily question. For real. Next, is the breakthrough question if there is value in change. Sometimes awareness plants a seed and eventually a new thought pattern can grow from that. It just takes time to see where growth takes place. Growth isn’t necessarily lowering the gates, just awareness.

Small wins!

I will celebrate every day. There is a lot that goes into my human day of life. I take for granted waking up. I mean, that is a huge blessing! I have a lot of classmates that didn’t make it to my age so prayers up! I know success because my whole life has been just that. I know I cannot lose when my mind is 100% in the game and I really believe I am on the right, successful path that I am supposed to be on.

Namastè!

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