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Finding My Chaos

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Hè, yogi!

I have been manifesting my peace on my mat this past week. I find that consistency is delicate. It’s so easy to fall off track and stay where I am at. Sometimes peace is too familiar, and familiar is not going to make me grow. I want unfamiliar, I want to be challenged and unfiltered. I might want these things, but my feet do not move with intention because my heart seeks peace. Sometimes I can talk myself out of what I really want because it’s easier to do what I know. Uggghhhh! A schedule is not to be taken lightly if I want to grow. I need to ruffle my tail feathers and start finding my chaos!

My yoga mat recharges me, bring on chaos💕

What do you think of chaos? Does it make you sweat? Does it sound messy? How can you know if you have been protecting your peace for so long? I know I have! I have had 100 foot walls up since I last drank. I have rules and laws set in place to keep people and distractions out of my way! Unbeknownst to me, I have created my cell. It is time for me to get out of my own way and seek growth. I have outgrown my protections and it’s time to spread my wings and find my future ME=)

Last nights full moon has me questioning all I know…

I am 1,000% a homebody. I love my home, and I love being alone. I also long to strengthen my friendships and I wish to be more social. I finally have my fatigue handled so my energy is fabulous! I planned a fun night out with my friend, and I plan on getting plans set up with my other friends. Friendships are so crucial especially as we age, it’s hard to find people that compliment your life instead of complicate. I also enjoy planning parties at my house and with Halloween coming up, I am planning two parties! Wahoooo!

Me as the ‘other mother ‘ from Coraline last year💕 2024
Me and my dad sharing the same expressions 😂  I am the goblin king💕 2023

I don’t want to appear confusing bringing up chaos and friends. I mean, I lived in chaos for so long that I am now craving it. I just want to be challenged. I want to be social again and have a life that I am not scared to live in. It’s time to get up out of my guarded tower and venture out into the unknown. My life is unknown but one this is sure; I love my life! I find my way in the dark, but the light is so mesmerizing and desired. Finding my chaos is going to be beautiful!

Namaste!

Falling Back in Line – Part II

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Hè, Yogi!

I wanted a frog pond💕

It has been a season of heat! I am so grateful for the relief after the long, hot, humid summer days and nights. Everything outside burned…oh yeah, and my body became inflamed out of nowhere. I have never experienced such a scorcher of a season! I am grateful for healing herbs and a stellar intuition to guide me on my healing journey. I am ready to get back and grounded in my healing routines and reset my habits. My soul is craving routine:)

Full Moon energy🌕

I decided to get my life back together and get on a grounding schedule: morning routine and evening routine. I also want to use my energy to manifest new ideas through blogging and other social media platforms. What if I created a healing environment and space to recharge every day? Could I escape my safe boundaries? Can I trust my instincts will only attract me to the right people? As my fatigue dissipates, I have space to explore and to be curious.

Chickies are laying😍

I choose to do monthly manifestations based on my what I am facing that month. It’s basically an hour session of me answering a series of questions to get laser focused on where I want to grow. I detail how to spend the 4 – 5 weeks learning how to become my dreams. If you are interested in the questions I answer to get to my monthly manifestation plan, message me below or comment 🙂

Sunrise and Jupiter & Venus🌟

I will share my morning/evening routine next week with why I do what I do. I love to share because we don’t know what we don’t know. I have uprooted all that I thought I knew and relearned with a passion for loving myself and being honest. That includes living in harmony and making sure I do not kill my natural skin biome. I highly suggest unscented natural soap. I have a few natural soap dealers at farmers’ markets that I trust with my skin. I also use unscented organic sesame oil as lotion all over myself. I bought a bunch of natural serums and tallow that I do plan on reviewing soon!

So cute!

I hope you enjoy this September series of Reset Rituals. Let’s get ungunked before going into the changing weather patterns of autumn! Baby steps get you to the finish line. I promise it’ll be worth it!

Namaste!

Mni Wichoni

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Hè, yogi!

I had a huge release! I feel so very connected to myself, and I’d like to give a huge shoutout to mni (Lakota), water. I jumped forward with an idea that came into fruition the day before. I was sitting next to the water to listen and be enchanted with its rhythm and free flow of clarity and truth. Boom, bop, bam! Idea enters my brain. I never jumped on something so fast since I started my business. It’s been 3 years since I gained my confidence back and can trust the unknown is going to be scary but so healing. Cheers to, mni and reminding me of who I am.

My spot to cold plunge🥶

There is something so healing about water. It cleans us, cools us, supports us, nourishes us. Water is us. I forget the beauty of healing with water after a long-frozen winter. Now as things thaw, I too become unthawed and curious. I too venture to the edges of my safety container to see what it’s like to become unraveled and grow towards the sun. What if I jumped into my fears and found out I can survive? That it didn’t hurt and actually opened up a new perspective of winning.

I have to come undone to move in this new direction of manifesting and seeing it through. That is my number one goal in everything. I have been finishing my fireplace project and had to pause because I need to go back to the store to get a small roller because I lost or threw away mine. I’m finally ready to begin the last varnish layer and I get to mark this off my list. That feels good to be so productive. Due diligence at its finest. I am a completer of my goals, om.

Before…
After🥹

I have to get going on a zoom call but I wanted to get my thoughts out there on the healing benefits of water. I cannot wait for my favorite summer season to really enjoy the waters support. Me and water will heal this summer and I will thrive in all that I do! I will share more on manifestation later 🙂

Namaste!

Communitize

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Hè, friend!

I have been enjoying this beautiful Kansas weather the past few days! It is so energizing, and I want to soak it all in! The little birdies singing and flying amongst the reeds, and I saw a huge congregation of waterfowl enjoying the sun, too, being all social. Nature is ever knowing and a great indication of what is coming. I bought my spring seeds for my garden and they should be here soon. In anticipation of our upcoming spring equinox, I have been craving water, not thirst, though. A longing to become unwrinkled has been nudging me to sit and pray by the water. I honored my intuition, and today, my unfurling has begun, communitize in the water.

I love this weather💖

Tomorrow morning, I will embark on an adventure! I have no idea where this will lead, but I can honestly say, I am terrified! Will it ever be more than just me and people I plead with to come. Will it come to pleading? Ugghhh….If I stay in my head, I won’t do anything, and it will just be that. An idea. Never come to fruition, just like all the other things I tell myself. Thoughts are just thoughts, and action is the verb. I can’t do a thought. I think? I will just hum to myself and keep stepping. 1, 2…

I just made the whole idea of community coming together all about me. I just like to think about things that I would appreciate. Sometimes, I have zero ideas, and I look to the community to let me know what is going on that I would love to learn or be a part of. I guess, in this instance, I am my target market in my offerings. I’m scared I’m not far enough in my healing to help others. What if someone gets hurt? Am I capable? Am I worthy?

My end goal is to bring people together to enjoy nature again. Water is so crucial in my healing. I swear to that, and I am so connected like never before. I have to share this because I am not a gatekeeper. I cannot wait to see where this goes from here. I am here for it though, and I hope you are too!

Namaste!

Trust The Process

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Hè, friend!

It has been too long since I have shared my life experiences as a yogi. My last post was falling back in line with my commitments to myself. I am the most unstructured person I know. Can I be structured? Yes! In fact, the slow but steady curiosity has led me to believe it is crucial in my growth. I have been pondering where I want to be in life. What does my life look like in 5 months? 1 year? 5 years? This is so important to be really clear with myself. Needless to say, this took all of 3 months. I am just getting started on how to get there. It’s not a rush but a direction I am heading. I will accept the failures and learn then re-route. Trust the process.

I’m doing some home remodeling 🤗

This morning, I decided to whip out a facial mask recipe and I am glowing! I feel fantastic too! My life is pretty amazing and it’s clear I have created all the space I needed to begin my transformation. The full moon last night was pulling all the worries I have front and center. I do not like to give worry a pulse but last night I tossed from 2:40 am – 4 am. I guess it’s time to face what it is. I like to pause and walk around the very root of my issues, careful to not disturb until I’m ready. Now it is so.

Winter has brought up a lot of things, things I forgot I buried…

This winter has been very clear to me. I have discovered a lot about me that I admire, and I want to gather all of my strengths into community. I find myself wavering because I am not fully rooted. When I am certain my “WHERE” and “WHY” I can build on that. It takes so much time, and I know I need to reach out to my community. Who are they? Where do I feel safest? I notice as people show me their true colors I will either jump or withdrawal and lately, there’s been a lot of me pulling back, observing. Who can I trust? I usually fall quickly and learn the hard way. Why is trusting people so blind? I mean, I am genuine, and I just cannot believe how hard that is….truly disheartening.

I am capable💪🏽💖

I have a local business helping me with my business branding and social media. I cannot wait to begin the spring/summer season of selling my drinks. I love what I do, it’s why I do it. I am craving more though and since I have gotten clear on my goals, I just need courage and trust. Well, I hope to begin documenting my journey as promised. I am worthy of all the glory of my wildest dreams! I really am and I am ready to get started!

Namaste!

Falling Back in Line

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Hè, Yogi!

I have been enjoying this fall weather! It’s been all over the place though! Now that the wind died down, I feel myself settle into planning a big adventure for me. Not actually going on a trip but to step out of my way of blocking my personal growth. I plan on working on those goals today because there will be a lot. I seem to sit on my hands a lot and let time get in between me and my goals. I have business goals, personal goals, community goals, financial goals, and we have a few holidays sprinkled in there. I must get a schedule locked in to help balance my excess vata, or maybe just redirect it. I will be excited to share as I get my life in order and start falling back in line.

Loving the fall drops💖

Self-Reflection:

I have been taking the time to reflect on my desires and needs. Where do I want to be as a 43 year old woman? What do I want to embody? I feel I can go any direction in life. I am at a crossroads and there are directions that do not make sense. I feel encapsulated by all the different versions of myself I have lived so far. Which version do I want to nourish? I have so much more knowledge of myself than I ever have and this is the best time to get real clear on who I am. Who I want to be. How I want to show the world the new me when I re-emerge. Life is about to get real. Real fucking fabulous!

Me getting ready to level up💖

Goal-Setting:

I am great at planning. I am not so great at keeping track of who, what, when. I plan on creating short and long term goals using the SMART (specific, measurable, achievable, relevant, time-bound), which will help me create a clearer path. I want to be so crystal clear and reasonable. I mean losing 1 pound per week is more feasible than 15. That way I can incorporate bigger goals on my long term dreams. Easier said than done? I agree! That’s why I plan on incorporating the next step.

I had to burn past regrets I was so I can re-emerge💕

Celebrate Progress:

I love to plan a big party! With that being said, I am very capable of taking time to acknowledge my achievements, no matter how small! Celebrating milestones will boost my motivation and confidence and reinforce positive habits of being kind to myself. I’m not planning on throwing a big, expensive party every time due to financial goals, but I will treat myself to a moonlit walk, a warm bath with bubbles, a 20 min face massage taking time to pay close attention to my movements, I will connect with myself by journaling. I love celebrating ME! I’m a pretty big deal to myself.

Me serving drinky drinks👌🏽

Positive Affirmations:

I love to use positive affirmations to repeat to myself multiple times in the mirror. I even make myself cry sometimes by hearing the kind words. It is magic to be kind to myself. When I am disappointed in myself, I disappear from acknowledgment. I have found that setbacks are a part of the growth process but instead of seeing the negative and seeing failure, I can see growth. I found out that way doesn’t work and will not keep going anymore.

I am worthy💕

Community:

One cannot do it all alone. Do you believe that? I truly do believe that. I know I need people around me that support me and that I can support. I want to surround myself with people that inspire me. I want to be on the path to be the best version of myself and I believe I attract those people. I need them and they need me. Community equals support and love.

The manifestation period is coming with the new moon tomorrow. Regain your traction. We got this🥰

I plan on sharing my next 30 days. I am excited to embark on such a spiritual journey to unknown territory. Who will I be when I am 100% focused? I cannot wait to see what doors open and how my life will be in 30 days….

Stay tuned!

Namaste!

Falling For Meditation

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Hi, yogi!

As the vibrant hues of summer gradually fade, the cool nights of fall usher in a season of reflection and renewal. The air becomes crisp, carrying with it the earthy scents of fallen leaves and the promise of winter’s approach. It’s during these serene evenings that many find themselves yearning for a moment of pause, a chance to digest not just the remnants of summer fun but also the experiences that have shaped their lives.

Summer brings an abundance of activity, filled with laughter, adventures, and a whirlwind of social gatherings. From lake outings to late-night barbecues, the season is a tapestry of joyful moments. However, as the days grow shorter and the nights cooler, there’s an inherent call to slow down and internalize those experiences. This is where meditation can play a transformative role.

My loving, intentional time to be with my thoughts💞

Meditation offers a sanctuary amid the hustle and bustle of life. It invites us to sit with our thoughts and emotions, allowing us to process the joys and lessons summer has imparted. As the world outside shifts into a calmer rhythm, meditation encourages a similar stillness within. The act of focusing on the breath or visualizing the changing leaves can ground us, helping to clear the mental clutter accumulated during the frenetic pace of summer.

I love slow days under the tree canopy💖

Moreover, fall is a time of transition, not just in nature but in our personal lives as well. Just as trees shed their leaves, we too can let go of what no longer serves us. Meditation fosters this release, promoting a sense of peace as we acknowledge our experiences and intentions moving forward. It creates a space for gratitude, allowing us to appreciate the warmth of summer while embracing the beauty of change.

Just a daily meeting with Mr. 🌞

As the nights grow colder, wrapping ourselves in a cozy blanket and finding a quiet spot becomes an inviting ritual. With each inhale, we can draw in the crisp air, and with each exhale, we can release the remnants of summer’s heat, creating balance within. In this way, meditation helps us digest not only the fun we had but also the emotions tied to it—joy, nostalgia, and perhaps a hint of melancholy.

Staying warm✌🏽

In conclusion, the cooler nights of fall provide an ideal backdrop for introspection. By engaging in meditation, we can harmonize our experiences, allowing the vibrancy of summer to settle into a deeper understanding of ourselves. As we embrace the change of seasons, let us also embrace the opportunity for inner growth, finding solace in the quiet moments that autumn brings.

We are all enjoying this change🥰

Namastè!

Sitting in Contentment

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Hi!

I have been in a creating mood. I’m ready to see what is out there. I have spent my summer cleaning, moving, organizing, working, and now it’s time to have fun! I’m ready to plan a vacation with my friend and another with my husband. I am enjoying the cool nights and find myself slowing down. Life is showing me that it is yet another season to reflect on the busy of summer, to process the major events, and sit with what I have and enjoy. I love this season! I feel the contentment of my hard work sinking in, I have come soooooo far! I am very proud of myself.

I’m captivated by every sunrise. A new beginning.

I decided to re-introduce my daily mantras routine Monday. I get up each morning and head into the bathroom. After I wash my face, I will look myself in the mirror and say my daily loving mantras. I am feeling the deep truth of my words. I even believe myself. I learned to honor me and be so kind. I am a builder. I will no longer tear myself down from my past. I will only love. Me and everyone. Love is the easiest to share for me. My love language shows up in serving others. I really love to serve. Yesterday, I ran myself into the ground serving. I need to relearn balance and boundaries. This will be my season to honor my boundaries and learn “NO” again. “NO” isn’t unkind. What could that mantra look like?

Do you feel the release of the summer heat? Is there cooler nights where you live? I love summer! I do enjoy the cooling effects of transition time. I used to be so scared of change because I didn’t know what to expect. I mean, my whole life changed from me saying “NO”. Just like that. I can sit and adjust and just be. Life is the coolest experience, and I have so much space to explore but for now, I am good just sitting in contentment. I really love where I am at, but I must keep moving through the seasons. What a life!

Real life peace💝

Namaste!

All pictures by Self-Diagnosed Yogi💖

Inner Peace Achieved

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Hello, fellow yogi!

Today, my house is no longer mine and belongs to a new family to create new memories. I will miss that house, but now I am in a new chapter. My immediate future is unknown but fascinating. I find myself becoming curious in my new environment, and I enjoy making new plans and stamping my ever-loving impression on all my new spaces. I am digesting new experiences as they come up. I may sit with a feeling to discover the path I need to grow. It’s so easy to look at new difficulties with zero hope, but how does it feel to sit in it and learn to be ok? In the beginning of my spiritual awakening, I was always sitting next to the water. I would meditate and be entranced with the offerings of the water and wet earth. The smell, the sound, the water spilling onto the land, and receding as wildlife created ripples. I saw so many fish feed early in the morning. I was home. I finally learned peace and to be content with where I am now.

A meditative walk in nature with my sweet Alex💝

I had to be alone to understand my why and to heal. I had a lot of garbage from my past I lugged around. Thoughts, experiences, life that needed to be sorted. What did I need to get rid of and drop off at the lake? I spoke my truths to rocks and buried them deep to be cleansed by the earth. I knew I was getting better because I felt better. My yoga poses became unhinged. My hips were awakened. I was fluid and thriving in my new environment.

Yoga with Mr. Baby🥰

I remember so vividly how light I became. I wanted to be safe sitting at the water’s edge all the time. I was protected and thriving for the first time in my adult life. First thing in the morning, at 5:20 a.m., I rolled out my mat and began my ritual. My spiritual ritual and all the things that brought me joy. All the things people told me to stay away from cause its “devil” stuff. Well, those people and their opinions weren’t very prevalent in my life because I was able to find my truth through all the haze. I became unscared and unglued. I was freed from chains I was born into. Generational curses, traumas, living my life to please others, depression, alcoholism, it all began to speak to me to guide me away from the pain I didn’t have to stay in. I was my own abusive partner for so long, but I found out how much I loved myself. I thank nature for that. I didn’t heal myself, and I’d like to think I played a part in helping heal nature too.

Well, there is a beautiful painting that reflects my healing process. It brought me to recollect my inner peace and write this blog. I am hanging this in my living room over my fireplace to bring peace in my new chapter. It will serve as a reminder how far I came. It will give me healing vibrations from memory of the water washing me clean. I am still here thriving in the midst of life.

My new painting, Silent River by Mishea Obiji💝

Namaste!

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Summer cool down begins

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Hi, to my fellow yogi!

The fire of summer is beginning to lessen on this side of the world. It is a nice transition to all the yogis who do not enjoy sweating in summer’s fire. I do! I thrive in the heat of summer and find ways to stay outside. I keep cool and hydrated with summer’s gifts of fruit and juicy, cooling veggies, and mint 🙂 I also feel like it’s go, go, go the whole season. I love being busy but I have to learn to sit and digest everything I’ve seen, heard, lived through, etc. How do you digest things you see or hear? Well, from my experience, mediation is my digestive power to process my senses.

I have had summers full of awesome experiences every day. I had no idea how to process and digest. I still remembered it but how can I incorporate it into my life or handle my future if I’m not fully sure what happened? Now, I sit. I cleanse my area and my body with sage or santo palo. The scent initiates the beginning of my ritual. I can sit outside in my hammock swing for hours. I listen to the sound of nature surround me and let myself know I am safe. Thoughts invade but I put them to bed by acknowledging them and letting go. I try to think of nothing. I concentrate on my breath….4 seconds in…..4 seconds out.

Can I just share that living in the moment is the most freeing choice I have ever made. I don’t think of past experiences or future ones. I just look around and concentrate on what surrounds me. The joy of the four inch grasshopper happily jumping through the grass. The butterfly that is so sure of it’s journey from flower to flower. The bees that fly around me without a care. I am amongst friends. Can you even think of the last time you sat with no worry or hankering to be busy? You can just sit and admire. I love summer and how alive it is! Do you agree?

I feel the communication my body gives me. I know how to nourish myself even though I’m super busy. I have to be sure I am shedding other peoples energies. I get bogged down with feelings that are not mine. I can very easily pick up energies from a room and they pester my brain and thoughts. No thank you! Not my cup of tea. I like to clear the channels daily and the best way is to journal and meditate. Maybe try the next time you feel clogged up. Try 1 minute. I highly suggest finding a meditation group or consultant.

My favorite meditation spot in Kauai, HI.

If you are in Lawrence, KS, try my friend, Jamelle with Bare Roots Energy. She specialized in reiki, mediation, chakras, and sooooo much more!! I also have her mediation handbook that is incredible! Let’s start our journey to better selves now, together!

Namaste!